- On Monday, I went to the doctor to have my staples removed. That night, I realized removing the staples may have compromised the strength of seal on my incision. I became convinced I'd probably need to be re-hospitalized to fix the issue. I called my doctor.
- While waiting for the after-hours answering service to forward my call to the doctor, our power goes out. The house is completely dark, and completely silent. Trevor suddenly becomes completely terrified. I, being unable to pick him up due to surgery, try my best to console him with a side-hug while holding Tatum (a low moment for mom). He is inconsolable, even after daddy picked him up. We head to our friends' home nearby to sit and wait for lights.
- Meanwhile, the doctor returns my call and explains that what I'm dealing with is "normal", but she wants to see me the next day to be on the safe side.
- While on our way to our friends' home, Nathan has to manually open and close the garage door. He closes his fingers between the panels of the heavy garage door... ouch. His fingers are numb, we believe un-broken, though extremely painful.
- Power comes back on, we return home, Tatum is champion newborn and goes right back to sleep after night feedings.
- Next day- Grammy comes to watch Trevor again while we head out for Tatum's jaundice check and my incision check. After my shower, the incision issue becomes much worse and warrants another call to doctor. While in the car, I talk to doctor and am instructed how to manage "complications" until scheduled to see the doctor a little later that afternoon. Dad stops at gas station to purchase "supplies" to manage "complication." Mom is highly stressed, and highly uncomfortable.
- Tatum's doctor appointment goes wonderfully. She is showing only slight jaundice, and her weight has already increased. Tatum is, once again, a champion newborn. She delights everyone in the office.
- Mom sees doctor, is assured symptoms (while annoying and uncomfortable) are not serious and will soon end. Doctor does some work in office to help alleviate problem. Doctor requests follow-up in one week to keep for any other problems.
- Return home, Trevor proves to be a champion toddler and is taking a great afternoon nap. He wakes grumpy and shows first signs of "done-ness" with the whole new baby thing. His grumpy-ness soon deteriorates into Trevor sitting in middle of the living room floor, crying inconsolably. (another low point for mom.) Mom goes to Trevor, he pushes mom away, glaring, saying "no, no"... (yet another lowER point for mom). Tears flow... "what have we done?" echoes in mom's brain... Dad is a rock, holds mom up and dries her tears.
Alas, this morning we awoke to the dawn of a new day and have enjoyed a much different chain of events. Our day showed some signs of normalcy and Trevor seemed to be back to his old self. He has had some extremely sweet moments with Tatum, giving her his teddy bear, her paci, or spontaneously offering her a "blow kiss." While playing, he sometimes decides he wants to see her and sets off to find her. He goes to her swing, then to her infant carrier... until finally he realizes one of us is holding her... he then approaches, points, and sweetly says "bay-bay" before going off to play again.
We've had two good nights and two bad. Last night, we were up most of the night with a happy, yet very awake baby girl. We are hoping for more sleep tonight! On that note, time to feed our girl... here are a few cute pics: (I plan on doing a picture-only post later).
Trevor reads a book with Daddy, while keeping tabs on his baby sister.
Trevor shared his teddy-bear with Tatum.
4 comments:
I can't tell you how excited I was to see you'd posted! Oh and I'd love to just give you a hug--None of that crazy stuff happened to me and I still cried, wanted to cry, and thought about crying daily. Soooo glad she's a good baby!! You tell her I said to sleep at least six hours each night right now for you or I'll tell God to give HER a little brother/sister soon. That should do the trick :) Please let everybody help you if you need it--I know what you're doing is hard!!
I am so happy Trevor seems to be adjusting. That is my biggest fear with Ryder about having another...that he'll feel displaced. I know that practically everyone has siblings..its just a way of life, but it is so heartbreaking to see them like that at first. Feel better and Much love to you all!
Oh sweet mama..... you have been busy. Sorry about your c-sect trouble. I "feel" your pain. I remember how painful all that was. I didn't have the staples though, only stitches so yours sounds more painful to me. Ugh!!!
I remember crying a few times just out of guilt alone. I think we as mom have such an extreme deep love for our first born, and while you will also have that for your second one and third etc..... there will always be days or moment for a while that you feel a since of overwhelmed and pulled in so many directions. I still have days like that. Days where Morgan needs, Hunter needs (and deserves some mommy time), Hubby wants me, my kitties both want my attention, my home needs attention and not to even think about myself needing to get away from it all and given some personal attention. Sigh!!! Exhausting just thinking about those moments.
Do me a favor, don't look at all of this as a long journey.... lets look at it like a temporary situation, because that is what it is for the most part anyways. And know right around 5,6,7 months for Tator, when she is sleeping through the night, and starting to crawl etc. You will have a moment where you actually feel that you are finally in the "groove" with how to manage all your attention and love to everyone in the home..... BUT yourself. LOL
But at least you will feel as though you can finally breath and sigh of relief. THe kiddos will be more active with each other and it will and is a beautiful sight.
Hang in there mama.
She is beautiful.
If you get a moment read MckMama's blog today about "down with the mothers guilt". She posted it today Pretty funny and thought it would make you smile.
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